prepare backing for the 36-patch quilttrace Hocuspocusville #4piece the Christmas 9-patch quilt topplan the grid and finalize block numbers on the wedding quilt
Overall, this felt like a to-do list rather than a list of goals I wanted to accomplish. These maintenance tasks really killed my motivation, especially since there wasn't a whole lot of actual sewing involved.
So what did I learn?
I learned that I need actual fun sewing in order to be motivated. A bunch of tiny sewing-related tasks does not sewing make. They all felt like chores and everyone knows how much I hate obligation sewing. As a result, my mind wandered to projects and possibilities that weren't even remotely related to my goals for the month. Never again.
Additionally, I learned that it's easy to kill your momentum on a project by not allowing enough freedom. I think I did this to myself by focusing on all the same projects from last month. The only one I remained excited about was Hocuspocusville, but I didn't feel that I could continue to work on it after meeting my goal because the rest of the list was looming over my head. Then, I came to resent the projects that needed to be worked on, even though I was previously excited about them in January.
Lastly, I learned that it's disheartening to achieve a goal, but not in the way I'd imagined it. The 36-patch backing is technically prepared, though it's not what I'd envisioned. I really struggled with meeting my goal versus meeting my vision for the project. The need to strike that item off the list and get the whole thing to the quilter was pretty great. However, the dissatisfaction with the whole thing was even greater. Was it fair to say I had met the goal without having met my vision? Sadly, these ideas all apply to the Christmas 9-patch, too. Safe to say that these projects need to rest for a while.
February has been a tough month. Perhaps the worst part of it all was that I met the letter of my goals without meeting the spirit. I'm looking forward to what March has to offer.
